Have you ever found yourself in one horrible relationship after another? In the end you find yourself with a broken heart with scars and bruises, just to realize this relationship should have been forbidden when all you were looking for was comfort, stability and financial security. You watch your life go by suffering physical and emotional abuse. This is why I decided to tell my story. I no longer wanted to sit here and suffer, trapped in a place I don’t belong but yet afraid to lose what I have.
My ex the father of my son had just gotten a new job and decided to see someone as he was working and drinking everyday. Financially wouldn’t help me with a thing so I decided to end the relationship. He at times would be verbally abusive it became overwhelming so I had to end it. At the same time I was looking for employment to help support my family. I was thankful that the party store around the corner was hiring because I had done that kind of work before, after being hired this is where my life took a twisted turn.
My boss would frequently flirt with me which I tried to avoid at first. He would say something about my weight all the time so I began to diet. I was trying to support my family with the income I was provided, when he threatened to fire me I gave in, although I was single he was not he had a wife and a family. With his wife not knowing he began to try to build a life with me by buying me everything I couldn’t afford and paying my bills. Less time spent with my children, no dating and all I could do is watch my life pass me by. I felt like a prisoner. He had control of my every movement all the way to the point of him wanting me to move out of my home and I agreed, into an apartment where he could see my every move with security cameras all around. With my co-workers not having a clue they thought I acted funny like I was the bad guy as if I did something wrong, but in actuality my life was falling apart.
He began to have other woman that he was seeing come into my work and harass me. At first I would be angry at the woman some of them just did it to see if they could get money others did it to torcher me but the whole time he was sitting there looking at his cameras laughing at us like we were the fools. How silly we must of looked to that man. I’m not sure why I stayed so long but the verbal abuse was horrible I began to forget my worth and the value of my heart. Its like reaching for the stars and never be able to touch them. It’s almost as if you loose your sanity when another person starts telling you are not worth living you start to believe it, this man took years of my life where I could have been happy with someone else. It’s almost as if I hit a certain age and he wanted younger and nothing I ever did would make him happy. I had woman like Samantha, Jackie and many other woman that pretended to be my friend so they could get closer to him to get financial gain. As I sit there looking at these other woman I wonder how I ever got myself in this situation. As I’m slowly trying to end this situation I finally found someone who loves me for me but unfortunately I am still worried about financial means. I’m slowly telling my co-workers what’s going on and beginning to take my life back. So young woman be aware of men like this things are not always as they seem. Till next time my readers, Thank you.